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Entries from August 2008

the failure of ‘freedom of speech’ in syria

August 26, 2008 · 6 Comments

This was my contribution in Global Voices Summit, I wrote this to present it in the Summit but i had problems with Lebanese security in the air port, so Yazan Badran was kind enough to present it on my behalf:

GVsummit08 Budapest: Online free speech in Syria

I thought about what to say in ten minutes about internet censorship in Syria. I thought that listing information and reporting cases will do no good to anyone as we thankfully have Google. So I thought about sharing with you my current thoughts about “freedom of speech” and its reductive meanings as a person who experienced and blogged about censorship in Syria.

First of all, I will assume that many of you did not hear about Free Tariq campaign but perhaps you did hear about Free Karim or Free Foaud al Farhan.

To give you a brief idea about Tariq Baiasi’s case, Tariq is a Syrian blogger who wrote a comment that is critical to the Syrian regime, he left the comment on a website considered suspicious by the government, he was detained on July the 7th. 2007 and a year later on May 11, 2008 he received a verdict of three-year sentence for the following charges:

1- Dwindling the national feeling.

2-Weakening the national ethos.

So the question goes, why did Free Tariq campaign fail?

We failed for so many reasons, the trigger was that one of our members was harassed by the government and was about to be detained like Tariq, so we decided to shut down the campaign website, and I shut down my blog as well for my own safety.

But mainly, and mostly, I think the failure explains exactly why ‘activism,’ ‘volunteerism’, and ‘freedom of speech,’ are just terms without empirical meaning in Syria. The campaign failed because it did not address the people locally. and most importantly, because “freedom of speech” in itself as a term is not and becomes not the “people’s” concern as much as it is the elitists’. To give you an idea what I mean by the elitists: 10 % in Syria use the internet according the Human rights Watch. And mostly it is used by the youth for chatting due to the sexual segregation in most of the Syrian cities and villages except those on the coast like Latakia and Tartus.

To get back to our topic, let me share with you some few Syrian bloggers’ take on Free Tariq campaign and perhaps through them we can get a glance on what I am trying to say:

1- many Syrian bloggers and viewers sent us emails asking what exactly did Tariq write in his comment.

2- Another blogger asked if Tariq is a Muslim Brotherhood fellow due to his beard in his picture on the campaign website.

3- Another blogger told me that since he is “Islamists” and we’re leftists and secularists; let’s leave him to his fellow islamists.

And this was the case, people support who is one of them, and don’t support who isn’t, but most importantly and dangerously I think, people need a reason to support the detainee and oppose abuse.

Many people asked me what Tariq wrote in his comment, but no one knows because the security officers erased everything, and I honestly don’t care if he is leftist or islamists and I don’t care about what he wrote in that comment, someone wrote what he has to say and for that he was detained for a year and now he is serving three year sentence, period.

The regime succeeded in letting people believe that we need good reasons to allow people to speak, now we need to follow a certain standard before we are allowed to speak. We failed because censorship is not just on speech, but on how we think, how we read, how we watch TV and the news, how we make love, get dressed and walk in the street.

The campaign failed because freedom of speech is a borrowed concept, I repeat, it is a borrowed concept and it is performed in an un-local manner, in the sense that we oppose actions without explaining on the ground why they’re wrong in the first place. it is being dealt with as a priority just because the world thinks so while the major issues in syria are not addressed yet. That’s why people won’t move with any campaigns of the sort, because we are facing a larger censorship; censorship of the mind, before that of the speech.

Let’s remember why we campaign in the first place? What are our goals? Intentions? Who we target? Isn’t “change” what we seek? Don’t we want to make a change in our realities? Make a better life? I personally hope so, but now I abandoned this way of changing my reality. In Syria, I think an economical reform is only what paves the way into other forms of reforms.

In Syria, virtual censorship is authentically virtual, because the true censorship is religious and social before it is political, it is inside our homes, schools, jobs, Mosques and churches, it is in the streets and everyday. The challenge is to address people because they’re the change, not the governments, and activism in Syria addresses its opposers and itself only.

To experience censorship means you don’t get the chance to experience life. And that’s the case in Syria, at least to me, before we defend speech, activists need to learn how to defend life, I am not a life lover though! (hinting to a lebanese party.) ;-)

Categories: Tariq Baiasi · comment · internet censorship · razanisms

ماركسيّات

August 26, 2008 · 2 Comments

يدعوكم التجمع اليساري من اجل التغيير الى الحضور والمشاركة في الندوة التي ينظمها بعنوان:
“العنصرية: اداة الفكر القومي الاكثر فعالية”
المكان: زيكو هاوس، الحديقة - شارع سبيرز - الصنائع - بيروت
الزمان: الجمعة 29 - آب - 2008، الساعة السادسة والنصف مساءً
لمزيد من المعلومات الاتصال على: 03-670783
* تنظم هذه الندوة ضمن سلسة من الندوات الفكرية التي ينظمها التجمع اليساري من اجل التغيير في اطار نشاط “يوميات ماركسية”
الندوات التي سوف تتبع هذه الندوة في شهر آب وايلول سوف تتضمن العناوين التالية:
القومية والعنصرية، حزب الله وولاية الفقيه، الحزب الثوري والطبقة العاملة، الثقافة والثورة، الطبقة العاملة والاستغلال

Categories: عنصريّات · لبنانيّات · معارضات بديلة · يساريّات

صباح الخيرِ

August 22, 2008 · 7 Comments

مبسوطة اليوم

حبّيت صبّح عليكنّ وعليكم جميعاً

:)

Categories: رزانيّات

كان قد كان

August 20, 2008 · No Comments

إمّا أن تكون أو لا تكون.

كان قد كان,

لا عبر جغرافيا

لا عبر علم جغرافيا

لا عبر حزب

لا قومية

ولا عبر آلهة

كان قد كان

عبر اللغة.

Categories: محمود درويش

يا ثالث الإثنين

August 19, 2008 · 2 Comments

تقول ممرّضتي :
كنت تهذي طويلا ، وتسألني :
هل الموت ما تفعلين بي الآن
أم هو موت اللغة ؟!

تقول ممرّضتي : كنت تهذي
كثيرا ، وتصرخ بي قائلا :
لا أريد الرجوع إلى أحد
لا أريد الرجوع إلى بلد
بعد هذا الغياب ألطويل …
أريد الرجوع فقط
إلى لغتي في أقاصي الهديل !!

يا موت ! ياظلّي الذي سيقودني
يا ثالث الاثنين ، يا لون التردّد في الزمرّد والزّبرجد ،
يا دم الطاووس ، يا قنّاص قلب الذئب ، يا مرض الخيال
اجلس على الكرسيّ !
ضع أدوات صيدك تحت نافذتي
وعلّق فوق باب البيت سلسلة المفاتيح الثقيلة !
لا تحدّق يا قويّ إلى شراييني لترصد نقطة الضعف الأخيرة
أنت أقوى من نظام الطبّ ..
أقوى من جهاز تنفّسي
أقوى من العسل القويّ ،
ولست محتاجا - لتقتلني - إلى مرضي !
فكن أسمى من الحشرات
كن من أنت ، شفّافا بريدا واضحا للغيب
كن كالحبّ عاصفة على شجر ،
ولا تجلس على العتبات كالشحّاذ أو جابي الضرائب
لا تكن شرطيّ سير في الشوارع !
كن قويّا ، ناصع الفولاذ ، واخلع عنك أقنعة الثعالب .
كن فروسيا ، بهيا ، كامل الضربات .
قل ماشئت

م.د.

Categories: محمود درويش

وأضاف زياد

August 18, 2008 · 3 Comments

«كنا جايين نسمّعكم… طلعنا عم نسمعلكم».

وقبل ان يقول في امتنان انه بحث عن طريقة لشكر الجمهور ولم يجد، أراد قول شيء «بصراحة»، ليؤكد ان استثنائية الحفلة لا شك فيها، قال: «بصراحة ماني متوقع هيك شي… ولا شايف هيك شي من قبل».

Categories: الحميمي خاصّ · الشخصي عام · زياد رحباني · سوريّات · لبنانيّات

في أسبوع دمشق التدويني

August 17, 2008 · 8 Comments

محمد الماغوط:

بيروت حبتني كثير حبتني حب غير طبيعي وعطتني شيء غير طبيعي..

الشام بتاخد بتاخد, ومابتعطي.

Categories: all that damascus jazz

منه وإليه

August 16, 2008 · No Comments

Categories: محمود درويش

fed up with consumerism

August 15, 2008 · 6 Comments

so whenever i check the “blog states” section in my blog dashboard, i scroll down to “search views” to see what people type in search engines before they find my blog, and these are the results for today and yesterday:

Search Engine Terms

These are terms people used to find your blog.

Today

Search Views
manar tv 1
razan ghazzawi 1
sex saudi girls 1

Yesterday

Search Views
news 4
sex egypt 2
razan in lebenon 1
razanghazzawi 1
razan 1
muta’a zawaj in lebanon 1
arab woman 1
لبنان sex 1
manhood 1
sex razan 1

Top Searches

razan sex, razan, sex razan

me hoping that “razan sex” is a reference to Razan Moghrabi, not me.

i dont understand, if taboos on sex would only make people as pathetic, why have them in the first place?

sex becomes the consumerisation of beings.

seriously, when we talk about sex, aren’t we taking about womyn? and when we’re talking about sex, aren’t we talking about products? so womyn are products for sex?

traditional marriages -favored by societies-treat womyn as barbies whether they’re veiled or not.

polygamy is practiced by men to get laid than to support “disadvantaged womyn.”

sex is becoming postmodern-people’s obsession, with or without religion, hijab is about sex, fashion is about sex, songs and soup series are about sex, and this is not a Freudian whatever i am talking about, it’s consumerism, it’s the authorial system that is capitalist, that treats beings as products, men “have stronger desires” and really need to get laid, womyn’s bodies to be sold (legally or illegally) and animals to be slaughtered, this is not feminism or self-victimization crap. this is me feding up with systems.

this reminds me of the apologetic argument for sexist harassment: “well men harass womyn cause they can’t talk to them in daily life, that’s why they use these ways (as in touch her body and talk dirty to her) to get closer to them”. ah walla? so men put sexist walls on womyn’s lives and movement, to be “men”, then go harass womyn when they apply these manly rules?
he wants her “polite” and “honorable” in order to be a “womun” first so that he can marry her “clean”, virgin, and when she is, and the poor thing doesnt have money to marry her, he harasses her cause “politeness” and “honor” apparently means he can’t talk to her normally. what mostly bothers me about this is when people argue for this shit.

why can’t womyn dress normally?

i mean some people would follow whatever system and whatever rules, to make their lives difficult, and the society’s as well for the sake of “our history and traditions” and “our religion” whatever these might be.

oh, and they say that the “west” is corrupted. now the latest word on the street is that, no, this is not “us”, this is what the “west” made of “us.” we’re perfectly fine that is.

seriously, life is too stupid to be lived.

Categories: On Systems · all that sex jazz · racisms · sexism · sexist harassment

الحداثة واللاسعادة

August 14, 2008 · 2 Comments

اسمنت
غبار اسمنت
حتى أصبحت سلحفاتي
تأكل الاسمنت

عربة
طنين عربة
الآن, فكّري بعربات
وطنين عربات

أمشي تحت الشمس
أنزف عرقاً بالملابس الضيقة للإناث اللامحجبات
أنظر بالوجوه
بالقسوة
بأعينٍ لا تراكِ
وبمن تراكِ لثدييكِ

لابأس
أريد أن أمشي
أريد أن أنزف العرق
كي أشمّه
كي تختلط رائحتي برائحة من هم أيضاً, بلا سيارة
ولا حداثة

أمشي مع السير
أوقفني السير
وأدفع مثلما يقول لي السير
تذهب نقودي ثلثها, على هذا السير

أعمل طيلة الشهر
أدفع فاتورة الضوء
البراد
الاتصالات
أدفع للسير
كي أتغذى
وأتغذى كي أعيش

ولم أعيش؟
لأعيش؟

ارتدت المدارس والمكاتب
ولازلت أفكر بارتيادها

ها أنا لازلت هنا
أعيش
أنا عائشة
عشت كثيراً
الى متى سأظل عائشة؟

أتّبع القوانين جيّداً
جدّاً
أصمت حين يجب أن أصمت
أمام والدي
مديري
رئيسي وابن جيراني

أدوّن لأنّ ليس باليد حيلة

لكن
ماذا لو سقيت بذرة؟
وأكلت من هذه البذرة؟
وغرست أظافري الحمراء كلها بالأرض
حتى تكسّرت
وسمعت طقطقة العظام الرقيقة تنكسر بفعل اللاحداثة

ماذا لو تركت سريره
ومارست العادة السرية هنا
على هذه الأرض الخصبة
لأنتشي أخيراً

ترى ما طعم عرق اللاحداثة؟
أي أصوات لم أسمعها بعد؟
أين تختبئ الصراصير قبل أن نقتلها؟

أريد أن توقظني الشمس فجراً
تلسعني وأنا أفلح الأرض ظهراً
لتتركني للقمر والشاي
وأرجوحة الليل

أريد أن أكفّ عن البحث عن السعادة

أريد أن لا أحتاج النكتة

أريد أن أستذكر الأرض في مخيّلتي
أريد أن أعتاد روائح جذوري
أريد أن لا أكره أحداً

أريد أن أعيش
دون أن أخاف ألا أعيش.

Categories: رزانيّات · نثر

سياق

August 14, 2008 · 1 Comment

يحتاج الضوء
للعتمة
ليكون

فالضوء لا ضوء مع الضوء

يختفي الضوء للاشيء, مع الضوء

اذن, ليس كل ضوء, ضوء
وليس كل عتمة عتمة

الألوان ليست نفسها

فلابأس بتغيير المعاني
ولابأس بضوء العتمة
أحيانا.

Categories: رزانيّات · نثر

لا حاجة لي أن أراك

August 13, 2008 · 4 Comments

قالوا أنّك ميت

قلت لهم: منذ متى يموت الشاعر؟

Categories: محمود درويش

Amel Mathlouthi - Kelmti Horra

August 11, 2008 · 9 Comments

Categories: Amel Mathlouthi · Videos · ayrab music · resistance

when activism sucks

August 10, 2008 · 8 Comments

yesterday i was accused of being racist towards Lebanese because i said that Lebanese don’t pronounce the letter قاف but they say كاف instead. for example,

كومي سوري instead of قومي سوري

i excluded those who live in jabal (the mountain).

in fact, i said on other occasion that i noticed that anyone who lives in the Lebanese mountain do use the letter قاف , but the Lebanese mostly say that only Druze speak the قاف , that’s not quite true i think.

the mountain is mostly inhabited by both of Christians and Druze, and i think the reason why Christians stopped speaking the قاف in their dialect (not to be understood that i am saying each cult has a dialect of its own, i think there is a dialect for each geographical location instead) is because they spend most of their time in beirut and only go to the mountain on vacations, contrary to Druze who for many reasons have stronger bonds with their community, villages and land that their language still lives on, even for some who live in beirut.

what really drives my intention to write this post- even though right now i am in an indifferent phase about writing what i think and suspicious about why i should write and be read in the first place- is this lady who accused me (said later on that she was joking) and who’s activist and one of the prominent activists on the Occupied Palestinian cause in lebanon.

what she’s saying basically is that racism is synonym with any criticism (assuming that my note on قاف is criticism in the first place) you make against a group WHEN you’re not part of that group. so if a lebanese made my observation, she/he wouldn’t be racist, but because there is this national divisions among people, because i am from syria and i am talking about lebanese, my observation is basically racist.

which is pretty much parallel to the logic of Zionists who stamp you with “anti-Semitic” when you are non-Jew AND criticize either Zionism or Israel. and if you are a Jew and did criticize Israel or Zionism, you’re a “self-hating Jew”.

how friendly is racism, if it is about labels, not concepts.

seriously, most activists i met, know, or worked with, become movers on the ground, so busy and so devoted on fixing reality, without making an effort to reading this very reality they’re so busy fixing it.

that’s why activists are the worst defenders of the causes they’re advocating for. and that’s why most activism basically sucks.

Categories: Activism/Volunteerism · Lebanesims · racisms · when activism sucks

الحرية للمعتقلين السوريين في سجون الاحتلال- Free Syrian Prisoners in Israel

August 3, 2008 · No Comments

Categories: Occupation · Occupied Golan Heights · Syrianisms · Zionisms · احتلال · جولانيّات · حرّيات · سوريّات · صهيونياّت

On “prostitution”

August 2, 2008 · 25 Comments

That’s one of the readings to Islam that doesn’t make sense to me: we are against “prostitution” because sex is “prohibited” since the couple aren’t married, but I guess zawaj el Misyar and Zawaj Al mut3a aren’t prohibited cause sex is practiced under “marriage”, so it’s legal.

It’s not just “Iraqi” women” that are “forced” to offer sexual services in order to survive, it’s the whole world system where a woman’s body becomes a service TO a man’s body that is a recipient to that service. it’s sexism that should be prohibited, not “prostitution”.

and that’s why Zawaj wl Misyar and Zawaj al Mut3a are actually more sexist than “prostitution”, because they are legalizing sexism, and sex service of a woman to a man.

but hey, that’s legal, remember?

Categories: On Systems · all that islam jazz · sexism

ألفة

August 2, 2008 · 1 Comment

مشهد يوميّ:

يمشي الولد نحو السيارة حاملاً حبقاً
ثمّ نحو أخرى
وأخرى
ثمّ يعود إلى الرصيف

مشهد يوميّ عن ولد في الرصيف

كلّ يوم
كلّ يوم

ولد
ولد

ألِفنا المشهد
حتى اختفى الولد.

Categories: تعتيرات · رزانيّات